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I have spent most of my friday + saturday hanging out with Brett, Carmen, and Theresa. Interesting crowd they are, Carmen and Theresa. Anyhoo I just got back from a trip to the beach with Brett and managed to take a few pictures, which I will post in a bit. In any event this weekend has been somewhat fun, as I mentioned I spent most of the time hanging out with some new people, not really doing much except getting some food, then hanging out at my house watching movies and listening to music. Its amazing how some Beatles songs don’t seem too recognizable since there are too many and its been a while since I was playing in my backyard with my dad playing Beatles songs incessantly. I’m rather angry right now, both with myself and those around me. Its driven me to the point of insanity to which I will crack, but not in the insane way, in the rational sense. I don’t get mad, I get random. Last night watching Fight Club I got a little close to Carmen, had my arm around whilst we watched the movie. Not a big deal, right? Well what makes me rather upset, and to which I really need to confront the problem, is that I still like Carmen, a little more than a friend, and it hurts me when she’s all over Hessman, even just playing around. I mean, I’ve told her this at least once, and I know what I should do, but I can’t. I don’t know, I kinda want to talk to her, and just her, about this tomorrow, but I dunno, I will give it a shot after she goes to church, see if she wants to talk, something I’ve never really done with a girl before, and which I should really do. I’m a loner recluse and its hard for me to face my feelings and to express them, and I really am lost as to the proper course of action. Oh well, we learn, we grown, the more we know, without try and fail we’ll never grow into those old people we see in wheelchairs and on tv. Enough with the rhyme and more with the Quake 3 Arena, I hope tomorrow goes as I’d like it to. As for the picture, I will search for it after this sentence and will post it. Ok, two for ya:

Well I’m really bored and I haven’t updated this thing in quite a while. I haven’t been doing much so I thought I’d update. So, an update. Here are some lyrics to my favorite white stripes song, apple blossom.

Hey little apple blossom
what seems to be the problem
all the ones you tell your troubles to
they dont really care for you
Come and tell me what youre thinking
cause just when the boat is sinking
a little light is blinking
and i will come and rescue you
Lots of girls walk around in tears
but thats not for you
youve been looking all around for years
for someone to tell your troubles to
Come and sit with me and talk awhile
let me see your pretty little smile
put your troubles in a little pile
and i will sort them out for you
ill fall in love with you
i think ill marry you

Its a very pleasant song. I need more people to talk to.

I have finished 4 books this year. They are (in order) Hyperion, Fall of Hyperion, Endymion, and Rise of Endymion. And they are all a part of a series of books by Dan Simmons, Really REALLY great Sci-Fi books that I suggest everyone read. It kicked ass, now I’m angry that its over, it was such an adventure. Anyways I have picked up a few Vonnegut books that I haven’t read, like Go Bless you, Mr. Rosewater (Vonnegut now has a book called God Bless You, Dr. Kevorkian) as well as Welcome to the Monkey House, which I’m sure will be entertaining, but Hyperion was so fuckin’ good I don’t know if I can find a book to top it… Anyways, I’ve been doing school, getting OK grades (likes As and Bs) and been generally alright. Been making friends and stuff, still no girlfriend, which is rather depressing, but eh, something will hopefully come along.

Anyways, I have chosen a myspace name, http://www.myspace.com/mrpotter. Its very red. Also, I have been hearing a lot about the White Stripes as of late, and they’re coming out with a new album, Get Behind Me Satan [Teaser site] in may or June, I can’t wait.

I will hopefully update this more.